The Best Way To Run Into Traffic

It does not count if you believe in yourself when it's easy to believe in yourself. It does not count if you believe the world can be a better place when the future looks bright. It does not count if you think you're going to make it when the finish line is right in front of you.

It counts when it's hard to believe in yourself, when it looks like the world's going to end and you've still got a long way to go.

That's when it counts. That's when it matters the most.

The Long Hard Road

If nothing else, one day you can look someone straight in the eyes and say,

"But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today."

The Way It Works

If you get between me and the things I love, I will ask you politely to move.

If you get between me and the people I love, you will move.

johnny rockets, thanks!

so, pag masama ang loob.i-kain na lang natin, friends.

huwatever...thanks, johnny rockets.

21-39

Happy 39th!!

Iloveyou!! :*




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Not another surgery, please?

Ok, i'm barely recuperated from my last surgery back in September and yet again, i might, just might have another one. I had a Laparoscopic Cholycystectomy procedure, finally had my gall bladder removed. Well, no more pains like the ones i got when i had it still, but it kinda hurts when i do stretching or when it's cold (the navel area). Doctor said it will take a while for it to completely heal from the inside, it was a major operation, silly me.

So, like i said, i might have another operation and thIs time, nasal area. I've had this stupid allergic rhinitis for years already and it just so happened that these past few days, and with the ever changing weather, it makes my head wants to just crack open, like dat! It makes me feel so sick when i had to sneeze, feels like i'm having the worst flu, and my nose could actually fill a bucket full of mucous, with blood, yeah, there's blood sometimes. The good thing about it is, i get attacks when i wake up, it's cold, before sleeping, it's hot, in the showers, and practically, every damn day! OA!

Ok, Dr. Lazaro found a mass in my right nasal cavity. Polyp i think. She's requested me to undergo biopsy and then from there, it's there! :| lol
Anyway, depends on the biopsy result. I just wish a simple medication will suffice, please...

Good thing Dr. Lazaro, advised me to rest for a couple of days and so i'm calling in sick again. Nyeta, sino bang may gusto ng kaltas sa sweldo?

I'd better get some sleep and i swear, my nose is sorta-kinda-like a gripo now.

Good night friends and enemies.

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Location:Sherwood,Parañaque City,Philippines

This one's for you! :)

Finally!!! Got my Visa!!

We've been waiting for you for like, forever! Haha!

Good things happen to those who wait. Agree!

I will see you, soon!!

awabu!:*




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Location:Sherwood,Parañaque City,Philippines

It's your day!

I've only this to say,

I wish you nothing but success and may God grant your desires, the good ones of course. ;)

You deserve only the best.

Happy Birthday!!

awabu! :*

Here's a little something for you. :)




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Location:Sherwood,Parañaque City,Philippines

cry baby

   Wow! a little apprehension, i might say, me wanting and trying to write about something. There's not a gargantuan of things or events that happened lately, well for one, i had surgery. And NO, it wasn't a sex change, it was just my stupid gall bladder had to be taken out, finally, the-pain-will-go-away-now, will it? Still getting used to this, knowing i'm incomplete? yeah, literally right? kinda missing my gall bladder. how weird is that? Hah! Seriously, i'm just freaking glad it's out of my system now. Less pain. There are other pains, but ugh, i'll deal with it. ho ho ho.

     Let me see, yesterday was such a painful day for me. Too much drama in da hawz y'all! Had a serious fight with no less than my old pal, my Dad, then, Mom and coupled by my recent disappointments. It was just too much! A lot of things had been said, we basically hurt each other...by our words. The most comforting actions that i did was just to cry it all out and get out, and i was crying like a baby!..sorry, i couldn't help it. Seriously, i never imagined myself in that situation, there was just too much inside. Too much to keep. Had.to.let.it.out.

     Haaayy...moving on.

     Oh btw, i'm back to work now, well not right now, it's my off, yah? Ok there, working again and i hate it. xD

Ouch

I just got discharged from the hospital (Parañaque Doctors Hospital) this afternoon.

I woke up around 2:30 am...in pain...terrible pain i tell yah. I thought i just needed to take a dump, so i did, and it just got worse. anyway, to make it short, i was admitted to the hospital for abdominal pain and whatnot. my babies (gallstones) are at IT again! nasty stones..how they've grown already! saw them in my ultrasound today. my arms are a little sore, i needed to have 3 different drugs injected to make the pain go. i'm all punctured. damn needles, i hate them. :(

Bottomline is, surgery. the attending doctor said, i sure was a super candidate for surgery. flushing out these stones with meds might not work anymore, so, cutting me open is the best solution, i guess.

I was kinda 50-50 about this whole surgery procedure, scary. this actually, may be a common procedure, eh, who knows, right? anyway, i feel so tired. it stings a little, kinda afraid that it might hurt again. these meds, i hope they work. i'll be going to my HMO next week and schedule my surgery then.

good luck.



oh oh, thanks to my sister, Net, for keeping me company. :) love you sis! (haha..sorry naman sa pic, mejo distorted ka lang..haha)

Children

They say, children are angels. They make you forget your problems. They put smiles on our faces. They give us hope. and, i say, true!

These two kids, they always make me smile. When they tend to be sweet to me, i forget my woes and all the more i have a reason to smile about. Although, at times, i get cranky, when i see them play and just laugh their hearts out, i'd feel fine. When i feel down, especially, when Angel calls me and say, "Daddy, peram ipod mo, play lang ako...(yeah, pati sa ipod, phone, kaagaw ko na rin sha. haha)", it feels good. i don't know if it's just one cathartic way of release for me, but it helps.



Am i just blabbering or what? hehe...just got to say how/what i feel.

Love you guys! :)

pogi!

I

WANT

YOU...


SOON!

good morning!

feeling good this morning...i don't know why. <----- :|


then i heard this song....Go Hard or Go Home...nice summer song!

Expectations

Don't....if there's one thing that we all have got to learn and i mean, seriously, is that, "not to expect."

Simple, yet it's depressing, eh? but that's the easiest way to move..forward, that is.

I mean, i just realized, people change, things change, even Brenda (my pet, black Labrador) changed! they do! It may be sad, but i honestly believe now, nothing is constant, but change itself.

But of course, we don't regret. life is ours to miss, if we regret.

Like i said..i have hopes but no more expectations. (in just about anything...)

thoughts...these are just my thoughts...i think, i'm going to be less transparent from now on, for a change.

Black Bat Hobbit

Morning to myself. haha!

I put an entry in blogspot yesterday and it was supposed to cross-post here in Multiply..and it didn't? what gives? anyway, i got up thinking about The Lord of the Rings! haha! Had a dream about it, i was Frodo's side-kick and i was smoking Black Bat <--- kamusta? haha! i tell yah, that cig is one of the best i tried, i actually have a pack, now. LOL! So there, i remember these past few days, i wanted to check out old flicks that i liked and it turned out, yeah, it was the LOTR Trilogy. Maybe that's why i dreamed of it, ya? So i looked for my DVDs, i'll get the Blu-ray copies soon and i'll watch the Trilogy again, in awhile.

sometimes, when i'm just alone, i tend to imagine that i'd be in this super magical world where i'd have powers or i do super extra ordinary adventures in a mega mystical-enchanted place and battle the forces of darkness or just be in it. of course, that doesn't happen always, i'd probably turn myself in an institution so i could get help. hehe. OR, maybe it's just the child in me. So what am I trying to say? you guessed it! i don't know too. hahaha!!

Dahil lang naging Hobbit ako sa dream eh yun na rin ang title...pwede naman di ba? haha!!

ingats y'all. :)

what to say

I've nothing to say, actually. I've been meaning to write about something, just can't find a good subject to write about.

let's see.

Pretty much in the waiting mode now, especially with my moving to Canada. Canadian Embassy, Manila, had asked for the fees and settled them already. I'm just waiting for my medical exam, yeah, waiting and waiting. I'm hoping everything will go smoothly, though. One of my "barkadas" is in Manitoba now, Congrats to him! I guess i'll be seeing you there! :) Oh and one thing, i haven't saved up yet! tsk!

I.need.to.save.up.

Those who've been furiously asking me about my status, Yes, i am still and very well devoted to my hub. Y'all know that's not going to change, right? :) Afterall, Ed is the best thing that ever happened to me. :) I have patented that already. haha! iheartyou! :*

As for my career, i'm still with the "Most Admired" company circa..ewan..so tagal na dito! LOL! i have to admit, i don't know what i'd be doing if i wasn't with cvg. hehe. It's my second home, i should say. Plus, i have a great family here. Puro sila ogags. haha! love you guys.

Oh, and also, you asked about my facebook account? yeah, what about it? haha! what dat? haha!

Follow me on Twitter instead..artista lang? hehe

So, what about you? what's goin on? how are things doin'?

ciao!

sad truth

Alright, the last thing i want to see after work are THREE TEENAGERS with bottles of Vodka drinking their absurd minds AT Seven-Eleven here in our village! I mean, what the EFF?! I couldn't help but called the attention of the store manager and explain why they were allowing minors to drink...at the store even?!

Well, He said they'll do something about it. They'd better! Then i politely approached those kids, asked for their age..taena..15-16...camaaan. i asked what were they doing, the guy said, drinking..OO NGA NAMAN, di ba? haha! (kakaltukan ko sana eh. tsk!) i just said, don't do it again, i'm sure your parents will not be happy if they learned about this, and ingat pag uwi...haaaay, kids nowadays, if they're not junkies/pilled/druggies, they're simply AMAZING.

Nasan na kaya values ng mga bata or natin, in general?

Ours, Soon.

Pag iipunan ko at mag i-invest ako dito. Ito ang magiging tahanan natin sa darating na panahon. Marapat lamang na pag handaan ang mga gantong bagay para sa pinaka importanteng tao sa buhay ko...THERE! ang maganda pa jan, eh pag labas ng Village namin, eh yan na..ang lapit lang. haha! Boracay, Urban Style..much Better! :)

Along Service Road lang yan, between SM Bicutan and Marcelo Green Village, Para�aque. Swear, mag tataasan ang market value ng mga property in the area. Nice!

kaya, Canada..PLEASE, BE GOOD TO ME... :D

Dead Space

Anyone that has a PS3..should and it's a MUST that you get a copy of this game. It's been out for a year, i think. i just got this game for a week now and i'm sooo GLUED.

it borrows some of the suspense factor from Resident Evil and it effectively incorporates all those elements to make a unique and engaging game. it's story by far is ok, it'll pass for a movie adaptation. characters especially those aliens or monsters, they are gruesome! ahaha...what's also effective in scaring you is, the SOUNDS...especially if you have a nice 7.1 surround setup..GOOD LUCK. hehe

the sequel is in the works and i can't wait..oh wait, i have to finish this first! haha!...and hello..God of War III and Final Fantasy XIII this month..WAAAAAAAAAA!!!

30th

it's been a while since i posted anything about my personal life. seriously, i miss it. i miss writing about sweet-nothings, saying "i love yous" and whatnot. i didn't stop because i got tired of it, no, of course not, i ain't tired, will never get tired doing those things. i was just kind of expecting a little in return, i guess. hehe.

obviously, a lot has changed. things aren't what they used to be. Sad? hmmm..yes, but it's okay, though. things might have changed, but i didn't. still the same person, crazy in love.

Happy 30th, Ed...

i love you! :*

My Mom's on FACEBOOK..shet

Actually i knew all along she has one, err an account on FB...was just ignoring her invite. Don't get me wrong, i love my mom and i don't quite hide secrets from her..i said "not quite"..hehe..it's just that my life's more of an open book on the said site...well, maybe not quite..haha!

anyway, i woke up this morning and checked my inbox..i got an email from her...ANAK, ANG TAGAL NA KITANG INVITE, BAKIT DI MO PA CONFIRM...patay...haha!

eh di CONFIRM...we're now Facebook buddies! haha!...and i figured, hey, this is fun! my BEST FRIEND is on Facebook, now! :)

love yah, Mama! :)

Daddy Ato

Yesterday was the hardest to take. Seeing you finally put to your final resting place was unbearable, too emotional it was. Dad, you have fought a good fight, you have inspired us in so many ways unimaginable. i looked up to you as a family man, as a father, as a devoted husband and a good Samaritan. you were the strictest, most perfectionist Lolo, with a heart i've ever known.

i know you are Happy now with our maker. No more pains, Dad...

We love you...

your legacy will live on.

just a thought

this one just came in my thoughts...

"sometimes, there's beauty in the scars."...don't you think?

Chances

Chances are we'll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see...

Misguided Ghosts

I am going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction,

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles.

Well Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
Of broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not, Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles...